This Old Record

Look at this old record.
It looks tattered and worn.
It looks disheveled and slovenly.
It looks grim and decayed.

It may look a certain way to one who only judges by looks.
Although, if one ventures deeper and listens to its songs,
they will see there is more than just a ragged appearance.
There is more to this old record.

Take the time to really look at this old record.
It is fragile and scarred.
It is beaten and bruised.
It is discrete and alone.

Unjustly crushed
until destroyed,
forever lying
in the void.
Left forgotten
and hurt,
completely bereft
and burnt.
Never heard,
lyrics remain unspoken,
and you can see, in the center,
it is broken.

As Cold As Ice

Is today

the perfect day

to be feeling this way?

So full of pain.

You need to get away

or suffocate in shame.

And in the rain,

no one can see the tears fall from your face.

Please tell me it is a lie

when you glare into the sky

and mercilessly cry

you want to die.

As cold as ice,

you take this knife,

and attempt to end your life,

still searching for Christ.

So many times

have I cried

to think that I

was the one in your mind

on that night,

with this internal fight.

You glimpsed the light.

I pray you are alright.

How can it be?

Was this because of me?

What I said was not as it seemed.

I never wanted to be mean.

You are truly

important to me.

It is becoming hard to breathe.

How could this be?

I want you to know,

wherever I go

I will keep you close

and pray you can come home.

You will not be alone.

My love shows.

Like a rose,

my love grows.

I know you feel abused,

but no matter what you

have to go through,

I will be there for you.

My feelings for you

are more than just a few.

They have grew.

My heart has, too.




I hope you can tell

you do not need to hurt yourself.

God will make you well.

He will lift you up no matter how many times you fell.

He will always be here to catch you.

I will be here, too.

It is true

no matter what you do.




Please understand,

to see you hurt is one thing I cannot stand.

God wants you to feel great, and

pain is not what He had planned.

Weather it is one small slash

or one slice that makes you crash.

In my psyche, there is a gash,

and my soul has turned to ash.




I pray that you will be alright,

and survive throughout the night.

I plead with you to end this fight.

I can help you make the wrong right.

I will not let you see the light.

God has saved you this time.

You will be fine

with Jesus as your guide.

I pray for you endlessly.

I pray for you in my sleep.

May you live long

and right your wrongs.

You have had a good heart

from the start.

Now it is time for your second chance.

Your spirit will enhance

when you feel His love

reining from above.

You will not have to pay the cost

for the time you have lost.

I will help you along the way.

With you forever I will stay.

I cannot express how afraid I am,

but I know you are in God's hands.

I trust in Him to do

what is best for you.

Candoress

not motionless - paralyzed

not gone - nonexIstent

not fearing - cowering

Not deep - bottomless

not killed - destroyed

not falling - sinking

not alone - empTy

not silent - mute

nOt hate - loath

not bad - worse

not less - leasT

not like - love

not ripe - ready

not light - sHine

not morE - most

not rising - flyinG

not good - better

not rich - weaLthy

not bOrn - created

not Wanted - needed

not speaking - singing

not cherished - sacred